Hello fellow ADH-Premie!

I got a sweet Harry Potter scar from being dropped onto a fireplace mantle as a child and I'm sure that didn't help my Prefrontal Cortex... but yeah Its SUCH an uphill battle seeking any kind of worthwhile reward with ADHD... whether it be excitement to get ready to see friends hanging out, women, or most tragically I used to love playing guitar writing music everyday for hours but now I don't see the point most days after constant bandmate failures and friends letting me down not showing anywhere near as much interest.
My preferred modus operandi for motivation is now either trying to juggle as many novel or nearby ideas & tasks as I can for several hours until I completely lose interest in all of them for a few days OR I simply wait around "staring at the unchanging wall/coin" doing nothing in a certain area or activity hoping something exciting happens around me when nothing usually does XD ramble over <3